August 16, 2012

Here’s To Today

Posted in Uncategorized at 12:48 pm by kaylynlorraine

Today is the day in which a friend was born. Today is also the date of passing for someone I loved dearly. Today I celebrate with a hopeful heart; filled with joyful memories and bittersweet endings. 

I cannot tell you right now how I am feeling. It’s to early to tell. I think that today will come in waves. All I can really say is that I feel somewhat trapped in this stage of anticipatory grief, and I haven’t made my way out of that. I can’t seem to shake it. What I can tell you is that I am holding on. I am thankful for the people around me on this day, and for my family, and for my friends.

I feel loved. I feel hopeful. I feel supported. Those are great feelings. In turn, I also know that today and every other day, I am all of those things. I just don’t give myself enough credit and I definitely don’t give others enough credit for the love that they pour out to me. 

Here’s to the one that is celebrating their life today: I hope that your day is splendid. I really do. I do not want to take away from your happiness. I hope that you are blessed with many years of life, and that you continue to seek out who God has called you to be. 

To the one that is no longer here. I miss you dearly and I love you deeply. As E.E. Cummings says, “I carry your heart with me…” I can find no better words to describe my love for you. You are missed, not only by me, but those that don’t even know you. Stories are still told of you, and because of the stories, people come to know Christ in a different way. 

So here’s to today. A day of remembrance, pain, celebration, joy. Here’s to choosing love. Here’s to choosing hope and faith and joy when it’s difficult. Here’s to celebrating the one’s we love and the lives they were given and the time that they had on this side of heaven. Don’t give up on faith, hope, and love. Never give up.